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Painless ways to kill yourself.

i. There is no painless way to kill yourself, someone, somewhere, will feel the pain.

ii. The internet says, “sleeping pills, you will fall asleep and never wake up! You won’t feel a thing!” When that is a lie, your stomach will turn to fire and your throat will fill with the taste of your own stomach acid. You will drown in your own spit. That isn’t even the worst part, it’s when your mother comes home from work. She will walk through the door, and call out your name. She will call and call and there will be no response, maybe you’re in the shower? Maybe you’re asleep? She will walk up the stairs, knock on your door to receive no answer. When she walks in she will see the lifeless body of her baby girl, lying on the floor. Her heart will stop but she will run to you with shaky knees, touching your face that is now still and cold. Her body will be on fire, and her throat will begin to tighten, the sharp pains in her chest will feel like knives in the heart. That image will kill her more than her own death, it will haunt her living years each night. She will no longer be alive, but just as dead as you are now.

iii. Years ago, your father showed you the gun safe he kept in the house in case of emergencies, you knew the pass code, you knew how to shoot and loud, at least you had an idea. They say a bullet to the brain will do the job.. So one night, when your father is fast asleep, you will be down the hallway staring down the mouth of a gun.
One, two, three..
Your father’s heart will jump and his body will follow, the first thing he thinks of is you. He will scream your name and run down the hallway and bang on your door. It’s locked. His knees begin to feel weak as he bruises his body trying to knock down the door, the first sight he see’s in blood splattered on the wall. At that moment his breath began to stop, and his eyes wandered to yours. Still open, but no more life inside your shell. He will drop to his hands and knees and scream why, why, why. There will never be a day he won’t hate himself, for keeping a gun in the house, for not making you happy, for not knowing. He will live a life without a son, live a life with an empty space. Live a life of hurt, and hatred for himself.

iv. You may think that when you’re dead and gone you will not be hurting anyone. You may think when you slide a blade across your wrist, you’re only hurting yourself. Yet I have learned that is not true, it’s not. The person who will find your body, the one who see’s the cuts, their chest will feel tight and they will feel like it was their fault for letting it get this far. The only mark you will be leaving on them is pain, hurt, and the question why? So please note this, there is pain in every suicide attempt, every death, every cut. You are not only hurting your life, but others too. Because you are cared for.

i.c. // “There is always pain in death, maybe not felt by the one dying, but felt by the lovers of the deceased.”  (via teamsolomeme)

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"The earth laughs in flowers."

- Ralph Waldo Emerson. 

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I’d make-out to Arctic Monkeys with you
Ancient Proverb implying utmost respect and honour (via firelordzuko)

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incomplete list of things girls like:

  • homicide
  • double homicide
  • triple homicide hell yeah
  • witchcraft
  • lesbianism
  • human sacrifice
  • dead things
  • monsters
  • summoning satan

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I’ll shut myself off from everyone to the point of insensibility. Make an enemy of everyone, speak to no one.
Franz Kafka, from Diaries (via figs3)

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My mistrust [of men] is not, as one might expect, primarily a result of the violent acts done on my body, nor the vicious humiliations done to my dignity. It is, instead, born of the multitude of mundane betrayals that mark my every relationship with a man—the casual rape joke, the use of a female slur, the careless demonization of the feminine in everyday conversation, the accusations of overreaction, the eye rolling and exasperated sighs in response to polite requests to please not use misogynist epithets in my presence.

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#i have a hard time dating men because i have a hard time believing men respect me

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Pretty much. 

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Source on that quote is Melissa McEwan, since no one bothered to credit her for it.

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The greatest gift you can give someone is the space to be his or herself, without the threat of you leaving.
Lessons in Life #39  (via coyotegold)

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1: You are not lazy, you are ill.

2: You are not selfish for taking care of yourself.

3: You are not arrogant for loving yourself.

4: It’s okay to feel sad, but it’s not okay to let the sadness win.

5: Your worth isn’t defined by if a person does or does not love you.

6: Do not put all of your happiness into one person. Ultimately you have to be your own hero.

7: A healthy person does not wish to be sicker. There is no such thing as “not sick enough”.

8: It’s okay to be alone every once in a while.

9: A bad day doesn’t equal a bad life.

10: Sometimes not giving into your addictions will make you feel worse in that moment than if you had given in, but honestly, the worst days in recovery are better than the best days in relapse.

11: Strategies and techniques are your new best friend.

12: Eating doesn’t mean you’re weak.

13: Not eating doesn’t mean you’re strong.

14: The words ‘f*ck it’ do come in handy once in a while.

15: Your feelings are valid simply because you’re feeling them. You do not need to justify yourself.

16: Never feel guilty for being sad because “someone has it worse than you”.

17: People are not perfect. They will offend you, hurt you and let you down from time to time, but this can be from lack of understanding; it does not mean that they don’t love you.

18: You are not a burden.

19: You have to learn to love yourself before you can fully love someone else.

20: Do not let your illness define or limit you.

21: Don’t be afraid to walk away from toxic relationships/friendships.

22: Do the things you love. Every. Single. Day.

23: It’s okay to be different.

24: Good things can, do, and will happen to you.

25: Recovery is not about being strictly happy, it’s about learning to become whole.

26: You cannot change the past, but you can learn from it. So stop analyzing it and wondering about what you could’ve or should’ve done. Learn to let go.

27: Letting go isn’t a one time thing, you need to do it over and over again.

28: The bad things people say about you, actually are reflections of what they think of themselves, not you.

29: Everything seems bad when it’s 3am.

30: You’re not worthless, you’re priceless.

31: One day this pain will all make sense to you. There are things you need to learn.

32: Ultimately it’s only your opinion of yourself that matters. Do what makes YOU happy.

33: U hella rad.

Things I’ve learned in recovery. (via pain-is-temporary-keep-fighting)

Reminders I have to think about more often..

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1: You are not lazy, you are ill.

2: You are not selfish for taking care of yourself.

3: You are not arrogant for loving yourself.

4: It’s okay to feel sad, but it’s not okay to let the sadness win.

5: Your worth isn’t defined by if a person does or does not love you.

6: Do not put all of your happiness into one person. Ultimately you have to be your own hero.

7: A healthy person does not wish to be sicker. There is no such thing as “not sick enough”.

8: It’s okay to be alone every once in a while.

9: A bad day doesn’t equal a bad life.

10: Sometimes not giving into your addictions will make you feel worse in that moment than if you had given in, but honestly, the worst days in recovery are better than the best days in relapse.

11: Strategies and techniques are your new best friend.

12: Eating doesn’t mean you’re weak.

13: Not eating doesn’t mean you’re strong.

14: The words ‘f*ck it’ do come in handy once in a while.

15: Your feelings are valid simply because you’re feeling them. You do not need to justify yourself.

16: Never feel guilty for being sad because “someone has it worse than you”.

17: People are not perfect. They will offend you, hurt you and let you down from time to time, but this can be from lack of understanding; it does not mean that they don’t love you.

18: You are not a burden.

19: You have to learn to love yourself before you can fully love someone else.

20: Do not let your illness define or limit you.

21: Don’t be afraid to walk away from toxic relationships/friendships.

22: Do the things you love. Every. Single. Day.

23: It’s okay to be different.

24: Good things can, do, and will happen to you.

25: Recovery is not about being strictly happy, it’s about learning to become whole.

26: You cannot change the past, but you can learn from it. So stop analyzing it and wondering about what you could’ve or should’ve done. Learn to let go.

27: Letting go isn’t a one time thing, you need to do it over and over again.

28: The bad things people say about you, actually are reflections of what they think of themselves, not you.

29: Everything seems bad when it’s 3am.

30: You’re not worthless, you’re priceless.

31: One day this pain will all make sense to you. There are things you need to learn.

32: Ultimately it’s only your opinion of yourself that matters. Do what makes YOU happy.

33: U hella rad.

Things I’ve learned in recovery. (via pain-is-temporary-keep-fighting)

Reminders I have to think about more often..

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I want to learn you.
I want to learn with you.
I want to learn from you
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